Saturday was crap. I felt full, bloated, fat, huge and ugly. I was actually missing my usual hunger pains. On weekends I usually tell myslef I'm allowed to eat different foods. Not unhelathy or high cal, just different, so I'm not always eating the same things all the time. I also tell myself I'm allowed a treat like a soy chai latte or soy icecream.
So I ate differnt foods and I felt like shit.
Today (sunday) I went to the beach with friends. And as usual I watched the skinny girls prance around in their bikinis with no shame. However, I didn't let them stop me from having fun so even with my hideously flubbery stomach and rather large hips I went around in my bikini. There were a tonne of fat girls too so atleast I felt a little more confident.
My hunger pains still havent come back, from eating over the weekend. I want them back so i can atleast 'think' I'm losing. When it hurts, I tell myself... it's one step closer to my goal weight. Every thing I don't eat is helping me achieve.
My cuz and I were looking on a 'post secret' gallery. Found heaps that I could relate to. Here's one I thought i'd post because it's totally relavent :P
I like eating different food in the weekends too, and I usually eat something unhealthy at Saturdays. Well, not too much of course, but maybe a piece of chocolate or something. I always feel like shit too.
ReplyDeleteYeah, I con totally relate to that post secret!
Stay strong :)
im glad its winter over here no more bikinis for like 6 months :)
ReplyDeleteha i totally agree with the picture, i encourage my friends to eat loads :) if i can't be thin the least they can do is be fat right?!
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